Mashonda interviewed with Vibe.com and she spoke about her and Swizz break up.

When I say Alicia Keys and Swizz Beatz how do you feel?

No comment.

Okay.

No comment says a lot, right? Yeah, no comment says a whole lot.

So you and Swizz were married, had a son, when did you find out it was a wrap?

For legal issues I can’t discuss, but eventually I will.  I just want people to understand that in January 2008 at my birthday party, in my eyes my husband and I seemed perfectly happy.  Hip-Hop Weekly did an exclusive, and things were fine. Whatever happened after that, I wasn’t aware. I didn’t know about anything, it was a rude awakening. I feel like I gave too much already, but just know I am in no way shape or form using what is going on to push my music. The media is creating a scandal, and I’m creating music, it’s not apart of each other.

Understood. What are you doing for your career so you’re not labeled just Swizz Beatz ex-wife?

There is no ex-wife situation yet, we’re not even legally separated yet. We are still in the beginning stages.

So it’s a break?

Maybe it’s a break, I don’t know. I don’t know if shit will ever be the same, and I don’t honestly see how it could.  Maybe this is God saying we need to do us for a minute, and I’m not pushing for anything but peace at this point. I’m not wanting him to crawl back and I’m not on his heals. All I want is peace and to be on decent terms for our son.

For so long you were Mashonda, Swizz Beatz, wife, and not Mashonda the artist. How are you going to change that?

It’s hard. I’ve had the label as Swizz’s wife forever. I was in a box. There were times I would cancel shows because he was sick, people would look at me like I had ten fucking heads, like ‘Are you serious?’ It was a part of why people didn’t take me seriously, and I understand it was my fault. They were my decisions and mishaps. But when you are someone’s wife you want do right by them 100 percent. No matter what anyone says Swizz always wanted me to be just his wife, he didn’t want the artist and the wife.  He wanted the wife! Then I respected it.  But music was still inside of me, and didn’t go anywhere when I met him.  When I met him I was on my shit. He tried to be supportive, but it’s my turn to take it to another level independently and put out good music.

Describe your relationship.

Our relationship, compared to others, was the most sacred, private relationship. We weren’t the paparazzi type couple, we more normal than anything else, but in any relationship, shit happens. We’ve been together for ten years and got together really young. I don’t blame him per se’ for what happened, because it’s life and people make mistakes and people regret their mistakes.

Was there a change in Swizz as he got deeper in the industry?

Oh girl, yes! But with Swizz it took time. There was definitely a slight change.

Slight?

Let’s use the word-different, not really the same person I knew 10 years ago.

Did you change?

I got smarter. He might say I got comfortable.

What hurt the relationship?

Swizz went from producer to rapper and that’s where the shift started. I was pregnant at the time. I didn’t even know about his song “It’s Me Bitches” until after I got out the hospital. I’m like, ‘Word, your doing a video and the baby is three weeks old?’ I was happy for him, it was just bad timing. I know he had to promote, but I had just had our son, and had to ask ‘Am I doing this alone?’

What song would describe you and your situation right now?

Definitely, Joss Stone’s “Bruised but Not Broken.” I stopped asking God for strength, but for patience. When you ask God for strength you are asking for a challenge, I don’t want to be challenged, I pray for patience. I put everything in God’s hands and give it back to him. This is not my fight.

So now, is it love or are you still in love?

No. It’s love.

How quick does “in love” go away in ten years? Do you resent anyone?

(Silence) That’s deep. No. I love him. He’s been a part of my life for ten years… I still don’t believe that this is really him.  He’s going through whatever he’s going through and that is fine.  But, it’s still a lot of love.  He’s the father of my child, you know… and he’s a human being; we’re both human beings.  And I don’t put fault on him entirely.  I’m sure we both had some parts to do with it.  In the beginning there was resentment, but not now. We are all under God, and so there’s no reason to resent anyone, there’s nothing that I can do or say to change this, we’ll all be well taken care of.